obviously, it's stated above, that it is in regards to the time length that is the rest of the year. (and i suppose september i will have to change it right? to thenextFOURmonths? hm.) well, it is a lot of things, actually, more than just a time limit i have to lose weight and get healthy.
so, since i know these questions are just pounding on your soul, i'll attempt to clear up your inquiries.
firstly, the concept came when i was sitting in the orthodontist's office a few months ago, pre-june i believe, and i came across an article in a magazine that talked about new years resolutions. well, for those of you who don't know, i'm obsessed with new years resolutions. i love new beginnings, and the potential of newness that comes when things start over, even if all it is is the tracking of days, the setting and rising of planets and stars and moons. this is the quote that i've fallen madly in love with,
"leaving is not simply leaving, not only goodbyes, farewells, and benediction over a time of life that is finished. leaving is also beginning; it is hello saying. it is greeting the new dawn that struggles behind darkened clouds of farewell, the dawn being born in brightness and varicolored beauty, enhanced by the clouds of yesterday still lingering farewell. beginning and ending are together in the moment of dawn, stretching the moment our lives take wing and move from place to place, from people to people, from task to task. ending-beginning, changing, becoming is the place where-in god is."
i'm not even sure who wrote that, but i know that my dear best friend from ninth grade, a miss annie morgan, gave me that quote on a notecard, and i have since framed it and it sits on my desk even now.
moving back onto the topic, new years resolutions. i'd made a long list of resolutions this past year. my best friend allison and i even had a blog where we, starting in november began talking of the great things that would come of 2011. well, this magazine article encouraged people to take a fresh look at your resolutions at the six month mark. it said:
- what had you really accomplished? congratulate yourself for that!
- what have you forgotten about? pick it back up!
- what needs to be added/amended? do it!
my dad has struggled with his health his entire adult life. as a teenager and in his early twenties, he was in the prime of his life... at fifteen years old he ran a marathon in under 4 hours. he ran track, played sports, and was, honestly, a hunk (i've read through old year books... WAAAY too many girls leaving phone numbers and saying, "remember that one time..." haha. TMI, ladies. this is my dad here). well when he got older, that all changed, and he quickly became the guy i know today, overweight and struggling to be happy with his life because of it. he's always talked to me about preventing that in my own life, although i've struggled with weight my entire life.
i don't even know where the idea originated anymore, but it came up that in order to pay for my apartment and food, i was going to have to be working a LOT. and, as i've learned over the past many many years, school+work takes up the majority of my life, leaving hardly any energy left to focus on eating right much less working out substantially. so my dad offered a freedom to finally take charge of my life--through the fall semester, if i took myself seriously and worked my butt off getting in charge of my life and body, he'd cover the cost of everything. incredible, huh?
thus, lot of the conversations with my dad this summer were about what could happen in the next six months. well, with the rigorous schedule i was working for the university this summer, i just didn't have the time much less energy to begin the process of this weight loss venture quite yet. so i decided that when i could move into my apartment, then it could start. (the vegetarian aspect just kinda happened, no planning really... more on that some other time.)
talk became about the next five months, til the new year. what a great way to start off 2012, 60 pounds lighter, fit, happy. this isn't just about losing weight, this is about creating a new ME. i'm still pursuing counseling, along with spirituality, in order to make sure i'm healthy holistically, mind, body, spirit.
so now you know why i call this blog what i call it. people have said, "oh but don't stop there! keep going!" trust me, i shall. i just needed this deadline to get my shit together. next semester i'll be working again, but for now, this is the first time in about 6 years that i haven't been employed (and ok, i'm still working like 6hr/wk at ECV, but that's nothin'), and i'm taking that time to pour into saving my life.
welcome to the process.
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