birthday?

so, today i'm twenty. it's one of the first years i can recall that i forgot to set an alarm for 1:19pm, the official time i was born. it feels a little funny. i was probably driving in the car at 1:19, or just getting to Farm255 with my dad around then.

after my dad left this afternoon, i felt the solitude settle peacefully around me. it was the first time since friday morning that i'd had alone time, since friends have been in and out constantly all weekend visiting and celebrating life with me.

today was also weigh in day. i decided sundays are a good day to track my progress, since it'll give me time to adjust what needs to change, etc. well, after a week, i didn't gain or lose anything. which i guess is average, considering that the first half i worked really hard, and the second half i was sick and tired--and then ate off and on very bad-for-me things throughout the party atmosphere of the weekend.

i realized i've now spent a week of these 5 months i have to spend, and i am one week closer to that goal date, and i have nothing, practically, to show for it. that means revamping and reorganizing the routines.

alyson gave me three incredible cookbooks for my birthday! so i'm going to be going through those and picking some recipes to use for meals this week. i need to re-establish my focuses, and come up with some Goal-Weight Awards (something i've seen friends do, incentives to get to where they gotta go, step by step).

i want to focus on fresh, colorful, non-fried, not processed (or minimally processed), natural things. no dairy, meat, or processed sugar. low bread intake. HIGH water intake. i gotta get on the ball about this.

GWA1: 209 - pedicure and cool nail strip thingys
GWA2: 199 - hammock and gavin degraw's new album
GWA3: 189 - 30 minute massage
GWA4: 175 - nose piercing
GWA5: 163 - very first tattoo

i'm tired, and have homework. nap, divine nines dinner, and life.
birthdays are weird when you're older.