other than that, though, i'm happy. i feel things changing. it's hard to describe in one broad statement, so here's a list of things that are changing. (oh, how i love lists.)
1. MY BODY
tuesday i went to yoga, and was really pleased with the experience. i felt more solid in nearly all the moves and positions, and while i was still exhausted and sweaty by the end, it was a good solid hour of toning muscles and disciplining the mind. and that's just the yoga. the other night i was doing an all around workout with intervals of jogging between weight machines, sit ups, squats, and lunges, and i noticed particularly when i was doing the sit ups that my core felt just a teensy bit more controlled. nothing monumental, but it was progress. progress is always good.
and then last night i ran with my sweet girl Sarah Jestel. i literally just felt a wide smile spread across my face as i wrote that. partially it's because i really love Sarah, but it's actually because the feeling i just got saying, "I ran with so-n-so," was a little bit extraordinary. i've NEVER ran with someone before... just a few weeks ago i couldn't run more than 30 seconds without stopping, breathless and panicking! seriously! but last sunday sarah and i were talking about running and i said, "i can't even run a mile without stopping!" (to which she admitted yesterday after our run that she almost called "BS" to me... i guess i felt the emotion, even if she didn't say it.:)) well, this was the night that i went back to the treadmill and said, "i'm just gonna see how long and how far i can go before i just MUST stop." and that's when i surprised myself, and ran my first ever mile. the next day i did it again, took a break, and added a half mile. last night, i ran 1.5 without stopping, in 16:52. i'm shaking my head in disbelief. I CAN RUN!
before i began running... it hit me. my hands were all clam-y and my heart was going off like an alarm in my chest. i was so nervous. my fingers fumbled at my shoelaces as i re-tightened them, beads of sweat gathering beneath my skin in preparation. "only twelve laps, ellie." i told myself (1/8 mile track). i repeated it to myself, "only twelve miles, ellie," i said... and caught myself. "miles?" i laughed to myself. but then, it centered me. "one day, that WILL be my comfort. only twelve miles. one day, that will be a relief. so i took that mentality to the track, and each lap left, i said, "only ten miles left, ellie," "only 7 miles left," (etc). and it WORKED. with sweet sarah pacing beside me (and picking up pace as i nodded to her at one point when one of my favorite songs came on my ipod--i can't believe i ran with somebody, STILL. we did the nod-to-run-faster move! ahhh!), i ran. i'm getting stronger.
2. MY MIND
honestly, i never knew how much running (and exercise, but particularly running) was a mental thing. it's about finding your center, knowing your breath, feeling a rhythm, testing your limits, obeying your body, but disciplining your mind. i don't think i could have begun this journey of fitness, and running, if it hadn't been for yoga. the deep breathing i've learned in there, like when my legs are quaking in Warrior 2 pose, and Katie challenges us to go a little lower... i've learned how to send my breath to the muscles that need it most, and it's changed the way i run.
3. MY APPETITE
i went grocery shopping yesterday, and i made the decision that i want to try this "pescatarian" thingymajiger. i want to make sure i'm getting enough protein (and really, i want some options other than beans when i want something of substance for dinner). so i invested in some thinly sliced pre-cooked salmon. MIND YOU: i've never been a fish person. i hate the smell, the texture freaks me out, and the flavor is a little weird too. but hey, running was a little weird once upon a time, too.
meh. fish?? i don't know how i feel about this.
smoked salmon + herb goat cheese + everything bagel = success! as doubtful as i look in this photograph, i actually ended up enjoying it. granted, it sounded funny when i bit into it (very... squishy), and my room smelled like fish til i was done, it tasted GREAT, and i felt happy and full when i finished.
in OTHER news... i finally bought a JUICER!!!!
(can i please point out how cool my pants are? just saying.)
verrry excited. this thing is about to be my best friend. i'm actually sipping my first juiced creation this morning (of which i took pictures, but they're not uploading for some reason. maybe i'll edit them in later if i get em), which consisted of: 2 carrots, 1/2 a head of celery, two oranges, an apple, 1 cup of cherry tomatoes, and 1 cup of grapes. when i was done, i was all, "ooh, i'll add in some coconut oil to get some of my healthy oils too while i'm at it!" forgetting that as soon as it touched the cold juice (on top of which i added ice...), it solidified. so i'm sipping some nommy carrot-centered juice with nibbles of coconut oil balls. hahha. nevertheless, it's yummy.
i'm so silly. i made this big to point out something that made me laugh-- "with large mouth feeder." perfect for me! hahaha.
til next time, stay healthy kids.
EDIT: here's those otha peektahs.
EDIT: here's those otha peektahs.
it looks like less than it was, but i seriously ate like... two meals of fruits and veggies in one drink.!
this is me feeling guilty and unsure about all that fiber i'm not getting. hopefully i'm still getting tons of nutrients? i don't know how to feel about that. haha. oh and, i'm slightly disturbed at how gross it looks.
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