pressing through.

words aren't arranging themselves in my mouth the way i want to. they're getting stuck in my throat, which is sore and swollen, and i don't know why. since it is a sunday, i weighed myself this morning, and it was 212. which is what i weighed two weeks ago. merh. i was 209 last week. i'm not really surprised by this, though. my tummy could be full of pasta, i could be hoarding water weight, since i'm PMSing... there's many factors that add to this. so the point isn't to get discouraged. i know a lot of reasons that i could be here at this moment. i think now, my body has settled into a steady lower weight than i was before. around 212, 211 is probably like, where i would plateau if i stopped what i was doing. obviously, that's not okay. my goal is in the next two weeks to get that "plateau" weight down to 208. honestly, it's not about hitting that New Years Eve party being 163, but it sure as hell is about being under 180... 175... that would be great. i'm not aiming for that specific target, i'm aiming to run, to get strong, to cleanse my body, and along the way, watch my body slim down and slenderize. i need to write that down and put it up on my wall or something. this past week was such a joke... i ate tons of pasta and empty carbs, i didn't work out that hard (i didn't go to ANY workout classes, hardly), and i barely ran at all. i'd wanted to be 206 today, and have ran 2.25 miles without stopping. that's ok. i just have to press forward. i DO neeeeed to keep running though, because my 5k is in just 20 days. yikes. i need to grocery shop, too, because i haven't had a spinach and kale smoothie in a week, or juiced... i'm shaking my head at myself, wondering what i DID do this week! yeah i had tests, so that was something. but it's time to step back up on my A-Game. tomorrow will bring me yoga and body attack, and probably running 1.5 miles, and i'll up that to 1.75 miles on wednesday, 2 miles on friday, and hopefully a week from today, 2.25. i need to get to the point where it's not a problem to run for 20 minutes straight in the next week. that kind of blows my mind but... this is a lifestyle about constantly surprising yourself. two weeks from now, 30 minutes. cuz i'm guessing i'm gonna do around 40-42 minutes for my 5k. eeeep. it's all happening so fast.

here's to pressing through the bad week, getting rid of this sore throat, pushing past the cramps and bloating, getting some groceries, and doing life........ doing life.